nothing beats ...

nothing beats...

nothing beats cold coffee to celebrate the end of a working saturday and the end of a horrible week lol

 

 nothing beats mcdonalds breakfast and card making discussion with soci buddy 

 nothing beats dressing up on a sunday to go to the ... library HAHAHAHAHA ... ok i know its 2 bangles, but still X). lol, speaking of which i remembered an incident in sociology of education class where i was sitting w yu rong and professor Raffin was asking "where do young people hang out nowadays?" and i whispered library which sent both of us into fits of giggles and prof saw us giggling and called out the girl beside yurong (which was me) and i answered "shopping centres (or shopping malls)" LOL 720 deg u-turn wahaha!! and yurong was like "didn't u say the library" haih i'm sure a nerd/geek i know hahaha. chainn huey always say i am i nerd HAHAHA... 

nothing beats eating a paddle pop; it was a banned food at home when we were young. so i do eat this occasionally cos sometimes it taste like heaven yet it sometimes taste not so nice. but this one was nicely done. lol and see the two corners? our way of eating ice cream when we were young so it would not melt so fast lol lol lol. 

and nothing beats re-connecting with a friend, the sailorboy lol...

graduation (BMT)

graduate loh...!!! BMT that is. didi's BMT graduation ceremony. haih, my little brother finally grown up. but very much proud of him c: *heart swells**

marching in. and trying to spot ming but we all guessed his position wrongly.

light drizzle and the umbrellas came out.

then it stopped and we proceed

 but the dark clouds still loomed above, and they march in with the impending threat of heavy rain.

 interlude, waiting for the re-entry and waiting nervously to see if the rain would come.

re-entrance and their dance.

 this, my beloved and zui ai de meimei :)

damn proud of him when i saw him in the NS uniform. he has grown up. gone were the days where we used to play badminton and soccer at the 202 open court and running at the corridor downstairs. lol, and catching at the playground downstairs hahaha. i still remembered reading a story and then telling them if we catch 100 leaves that have not fallen to the ground that we'll have a wish come true HAHAHAHAHA and we did just that, running after leaves at the playground downstairs LOL and getting pwn-ed cos all three pairs of hand were up, waiting for the leaves to drop onto our hands and it eluded all 6 hands!! lol and we were cursing ourselves for the miss HAHAHAHAHAHA. caught about 30+ leaves and we gave up hahaha. very hard lah 100 leaves and we go chasing like crazed kids hahaha. aih... childhood memories :). although we might have our quarrels and disagreements sometimes, but life wouldn't be the same without you all. i love u all. i really do. i realised that the three of us have really funny childhood stories. HAHAHAHAHA

the easy saturday

my attire for saturday (yesterday) which resulted me in two itch on my right legs and a few bruises and a few cuts. all because of my laziness ... so i get an easier time washing clothes. zzz...

how do i look? wahahaha

 now i wanna eat cupcakes :( the green tea one especially

安靜了

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮
卻成了 單人結婚進行曲
在這場愛情角力的拔河裡
愛我還是愛你 你選擇了自己

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是你喜歡的
如今我還在原地 你卻走回你的記憶.

你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮 安靜了 在我枕邊的夢裡
我知道相愛原本就不容易
愛不是1加1 努力就有結局

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是愛著你的
臉頰的淚還溫熱 卻沒有人握我的手

(曲：周杰倫 詞：Selina、李姚 編曲：洪敬堯)

 

 你说我爱你太多，就快要把你淹沒。害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落。 

为什么你不能享受这份爱？

 你說我給你太多， 卻不能給我什麼。 我没有要你给我什么， 我只需要你的爱，不管是激情，承諾，永恆还是迷惑，能陪着你， 就是幸福。

也许你最后不会给我你的承诺，至少，我们试过。 我不管幸福会不会在下一秒消失，只因为，我，太爱你。
你的理由，伤了我们两个人，而我，背着两个人的伤痛。

feel

i need you to say something about both of us. 

crying fits

cried on the bus again. damnit.

its hard to love yourself when you realised that it seems nobody loves you wholeheartedly. 

i'm being pushed around by you, blowing hot and cold to me. 

i thought i was just getting used to being made used of and you made things worse. you made it worse for me. 

MBS!

first time to mbs and overwhelmed la, i nv went to shop gone there to do exhibition :c and this tourist (who obviously has been there several times cos she kept saying last time ... to her bf) keep making things difficult for me by asking me where is the basement early in the morning. told her it was the last floor and there was no basement already and she didn't believe me =(, turned out she was talking about the hotel parking lot i think. 

very excited with this canal, so romantic wahahaha, ok la, and very novel C: 

 row, row, row your boat 

 quiet a calming effect on me the canal and probably its 930am and nobody also hehe... wasn't feeling that particularly good that week also. so thank you mbs.

 the fountain @ 938am (hahaha, i specially walked the length of the canal to here)

 The TWG cafe above the canal. would be nice to while away the time with tea, desserts and a book in hand :) 

probably i won't be able to afford the things inside the shops (probably only the itouch i can buy lol) but i'll return (for TWG and the canal and the view outside the mbs) 

questions

once too young

got a surprise message this morning, a good morning greeting from a friend haha. nice surprise on a moody saturday cos it was nice to sleep in and i had to work =(

i feel terrible... how i wished there was someone to comfort me.  

somehow, i always remembered what a friend said when she was going through a bad breakup. "i will only love myself from now on". i always wondered what made her said such harsh words. but now i realise, it doesn't seems as harsh as i had thought initially but it made all the sense in the world. 

because, who will love me if i don't? if nobody loves me, then i'll love myself. reminding me of a convo between p and me. 

me: "its time we treat ourselves better lol"
p   : "ive been very good to myself. Hahaha"

yeah, probably its time i treat myself better rather than waiting for you? 

36.84s

 

hahaha, just finished watching the replay of thr 4x100m relay, had to say the commentators were very cute lol... don't think i can embed the video here but they said. usain bolt was the entertainer on the tracks but the commentators were real good.

"at this stage,  i have to say that i do not know who came third." (it was a nail biting anchor leg, usa and jamaica were neck to neck)

"i hope its not a problem here, i hope its not been a disqualification. if it has, well hang on a moment, it could be ..." 

(Replay of changeover for third and anchor leg of the relay) " (nesta carter to yohan blake) that's okay, what's wrong with that? nothing. well i hope there isn't a disqualification because that would ruined this event certainly"

 

 (yohan blake running down the bend to usain bolt) "now there ... that's okay, that's alright. there was nothing wrong with that at all (hear his indignation  lol)"

"incredible safe, totally safe" 

"i think there is a problem you know because usain bolt is really remonstrating over the far side, now we don't know why ..." 

"(the other commentator) i think i know why, they try to take the baton from him when he finished the race ... (couldn't catch to transcribe) ..." 

"(the first commentator) AW, OH! right, thankfully, thankfully, because i do not want to see a great  moment ruined. that is confirmed there isn't it? absolutely wonderful stuff ... and he (usain bolt) is smiling again now." i think he must be like, oh hahaha, phew~ 

and he assures us that usain bolt changeover was safe. 

lol, dear sirs, i don't know who you two are but great commentary!! thank you for london 2012 athletics. and thank you for giving Michael Frater and  Nesta Carter there recognition as you would have said "But lets pay tribute to also Nesta Carter and Michael Frater because they won't get the headlines but they did play the part by running the first two legs both in Beijing and in daegu (i think) and the game here"

thank you again!!! good bye London 2012. thank you for the games!!! 

now i don't know what sport is my fav lol cos i also fell in love with track cycling =c hahaha 

Happy 47th Birthday, Singapore!!!

ok now must faster finish typing this before i join in the celebrations at 5! 

first up, Happy Birthday Singapore!!! thank you for everything (and i mean everything). Wishing you many prosperous and blissful years ahead and wishing you many more other grand birthdays celebrations to come c:. 

decided to type this long article just now so here goes ... some of what i am writing here is to the best of my knowledge and memory  (based on one Singapore Studies module i took - Evolution of a global city state) and my ability to decipher my own handwriting on my SSA2211 lecture notes and the research i have done on the assignments i have completed for the module so any errors will be purely one me. so lets start. This would be a short one, i think i'll expand or add more details when i have the time to go through my readings and notes.

Singapore was strategically located as what the prof says the gift of geography and Sir Stamford Raffles acquisition of Singapore was due to its strategic location and to serve as a functioning node in the trading networks (SSA2211 Notes). Goods were exported from and imported into Singapore. So, on 30 January 1819 when Sir Stamford Raffles signed a preliminary treaty allowing East India Company to set up a trading post. When Colonel William Farquhar and Dr John Crawford took over the reigns of developing Singapore, it flourished under their leadership.

Then the island of Singapore became Synoan (Kwa, 2004: pp138) after Lieutenant-General A.E. Percival surrendered unconditionally to Lieutenant-General Yamashiata Tomoyuki, marking the the start of a dark period of Singapore under the Japanese Occupation. And this period is especially significant because this period was great leaders emerged and the first person anyone would think of would be Mr Lee Kuan Yew (when I was writing the assignment, he was Minister Mentor). On 9 August 1965, Mr Lee announced the separation of Singapore from Malaysia and he cried, saying, “For me, it is a moment of anguish. All my life, my whole adult life, I have believed in merger and unity of the two territories." I came across this image / video while watching The Singapore Story at the discovery center (a excursion in Primary School, I think it was the discovery center) and have never forgotten the image. You just need to see the video once to remember it for life. It was such historic, such heartbreaking moment. So i'm not going to put any image here, go watch it on youtube and you'll remember it for life, I am serious. 

For a long while, and i think now also, mention Singapore and the first thing I think is Mr Lee, the pioneer and not forgetting Mr Toh Chin Chye and the founding fathers of PAP. 

Please go read Men in White and other Mr Lee's books. 

Happy Birthday Singapore, I wish you many more successes to come. Happy happy birthday!!

 

$150

left work and realised on the way home i left my book in the office -_-" and agonized on the whole way back because i had no book to read, at the same time cursing myself that i should have gotten the kindle touch and my heart clenched again, like some lovelorn lover HAHAHA~

came home and saw i had brought two books out today /_\ realising i wasted my time agonizing, damnit... then happily congratulating myself luckily didn't get the kindle cos i can get the bcbg maxazria watch instead and heart clenched again. WHAT IS THIS??? my heart clenches for this things :(. hais but $150 is really alot leh for a watch or a kindle. my mother will skin me alive, but its so pretty =((( 

now i want to kill myself hahaahah

the secret lives of shoes.

*ps: long wordy article ahead ... of shoes c:. saw this article in the straits times and looked for it online, so i can post it here hahaha maybe i'll do an assignment on the sociology of shoes one day haahah. misha did mentioned the sociology of fashion during social theory class but why nobody teach ah this module? hahaha

on the other hand, the kindle purchase is temporarily on hold *because i have no money :c and i'm scared that i'll lose my love for the library and real books. i still am skeptical about the ebook la somehow, but gonna ask for ms yeoh's opinion before i get tt HAHAHA i think she's gonna skin me alive again hahahahah cos i say i wanna read :c. so enjoy the article!

If you have been reading newspapers or websites, listening to the radio or watching TV over the past few weeks, you have probably heard the news: “You CAN judge a person by his shoes.” Beginning in mid-June, word of a psychology article titled “Shoes as a source of first impressions” began circling the globe.

Describing an experiment by researchers from the University of Kansas and Wellesley College, many reports declared that shoes alone reveal just everything about the wearer’s personality. “Overly aggressive people wear ankle boots,” proclaimed a Los Angeles National Public Radio host.

Stylish Mobility

Like cars, shoes combine function and aesthetics, the promise of mobility and the pleasures of style. As apparel, they offer not only protection but transformation; as autonomous objects, they serve as “bursts of beauty that defy the mundane,” writes Rachelle Bergstein in “Women From the Ankle Down: The Story of Shoes and How They Define Us.” Unlike cars, shoes are also inexpensive enough to permit people to build diverse wardrobes, changing footwear with season, circumstances and mood.

Whether Jimmy Choos, Pumas or Toms, shoes let us stand out as individuals while fitting into similarly shod social groups. The complex relationship between the social and the personal is why it’s so hard to tell much about a shoe’s owner from a photograph alone -- and why shoes are so interesting. Their meanings require, and sometimes reveal, broader cultural context. Bergstein tells the story of a Texas high school that in 1993 punished students for wearing Doc Martens, falsely assuming that the boots signaled white racism when in fact they merely reflected students’ musical taste. A shoe, says Elizabeth Semmelhack, the senior curator at the Bata Shoe Museum in Toronto, “is an accessory that can carry a lot of cultural meaning.”

Shoes have, for instance, long defined the border between luxury and necessity. Too many or too expensive, and they invite condemnation as an indulgence; too few, or the wrong kind, and they symbolize poverty and shame. Think of Imelda Marcos -- or the current divorce dispute between hedge-fund honcho Daniel Shak and his poker-playing ex-wife Beth Shak over her 1,200 pairs of designer shoes -- versus “barefoot and pregnant.” Tracing the shifts in footwear norms reveals patterns in economic development, class structure, manufacturing technology, sex roles, even international relations.

“Custom,” wrote Adam Smith in “The Wealth of Nations,” “has rendered leather shoes a necessary of life in England. The poorest creditable person of either sex would be ashamed to appear in public without them. In Scotland, custom has rendered them a necessary of life to the lowest order of men; but not to the same order of women, who may, without any discredit, walk about barefooted. In France they are necessaries neither to men nor to women, the lowest rank of both sexes appearing there publicly, without any discredit, sometimes in wooden shoes, and sometimes barefooted.”

Shoe Signals

Up until about 1860, American women generally wore delicate slippers, even outdoors on the frontier, in an egalitarian but impractical imitation of French aristocrats. The French were American allies, while the British, who wore sturdier footwear, were not.

Our contemporary footwear fascination may date to Spike Lee’s Mars Blackmon commercials for Nike Inc.’s Air Jordans in the late 1980s. (“It’s gotta be the shoes.”) But it has intensified in recent years. In the lyrics to last year’s hipster anthem “Pumped Up Kicks,” status-symbol shoes inspire an alienated teenager’s fantasies of shooting down his classmates. A 2007 episode of HBO’s “Entourage” revolved around a character’s quest for limited-edition sneakers. The USA Network’s spy show “Covert Affairs,” which starts its third season this week, prominently features its protagonist’s Christian Louboutin pumps.

In a content analysis of 48 hours on Britain’s Channel 4, Alexandra Sherlock, a sociologist at the University of Sheffield, found 170 references to shoes. They showed up in everything from yogurt commercials to the movie “Get Rich or Die Tryin”’ -- often without the audience even noticing them. Movies often use shoes to signal a character’s true identity. This pop-culture trope, Sherlock suggested in an e-mail, may explain why people assume shoes by themselves can reveal more about personality than they actually do.

One reason for shoes’ current cultural prominence is the sheer number of pairs people own today. Americans bought seven pairs per person last year, according to the American Apparel and Footwear Association. That’s down from a peak of slightly more than eight pairs in 2006 but still high by historical standards.

Shoes Galore

Sherlock’s University of Sheffield colleague Jenny Hockey, who heads a project on footwear and identity, notes that “when we were shown round people’s current shoe ‘wardrobes’ many of them were surprised to find how very many pairs they had -- 10 or 20, sometimes more.” I got similar results with an informal blog and Facebook poll asking people to estimate how many shoes they have and then tally the actual number. “Thought I had 12,” wrote one respondent. “I have...22. There goes my concept of myself as someone who really doesn’t care about shoes.” (The average American owns 11 pairs, according to a 2009 Kelton Research survey, though most respondents probably guessed without counting.) This abundance reflects a long-term increase in living standards that often goes unnoticed; such inventories, whether of shoes, clothes or other reusable goods, have reduced the hardship of the current recession, particularly compared with the Great Depression.

Today’s usual hardship isn’t going without shoes, or putting cardboard in the ones you have to make them last. It’s longing for shoes you’ll rarely wear or can’t afford. Thanks to Internet shopping, you don’t even have to leave home, or live in a big city, to face temptation.

The Internet also fosters communities of shoe geeks. The sneaker site SoleCollector claims more than 315,000 forum members. Commenting on Manolo’s Shoe Blog, a respected conservative journalist can, without fear of ridicule, admit to owning 200 pairs of shoes.

Sherlock suggests that “Sex and the City” had a similar effect, making it safe for previously reticent women to acknowledge their interest in shoes. “I do not believe that the series has ‘told’ people to love shoes,” she cautions. “Rather, it has appealed to viewers’ own personal experiences.”

Her distinction between media manipulation and personal meaning hints at the bigger issues at stake in all this talk about shoes: How do we understand life in a commercial, consumer-oriented society? Academic traditionalists and hard- headed advocates of “practical” research often dismiss scholarship on material culture, including shoes, as frivolous nonsense. So they leave thinking about questions like why people buy shoes and what they mean in people’s lives to Marxists, Freudians and others who decry commercial culture, treat consumers as powerless dupes or, at best, reduce every “unnecessary” purchase to some form of status competition.

The result is a desiccated understanding of history and culture. In an academic article, Sherlock decries “the postmodern tendency to fetishise the shoe, both in the Marxian (commodity fetish) and Freudian (psycho-sexual) sense, for what it ‘stands’ for rather than what it is.” Even when they contain an element of truth, such theories are as simplistic and misleading as the claim that ankle boots indicate an overly aggressive personality. Commercial culture -- our culture -- deserves better.

(Virginia Postrel is a Bloomberg View columnist. She is the author of “The Future and Its Enemies” and “The Substance of Style,” and is writing a book on glamour. The opinions expressed are her own.)

kindle kindle

my heart is clenching every moment i think about kindle fml. =(

3g

noooo... my sister ask me to buy kindle T.T cos she says she has the itouch already :(. she thought i wanted to buy a kinect hhaahaha. now i so tempted to buy already cos she say be impulsive first, think later ahaha. i was happily planning to get kindle when she said "GO SEE THE F21 WEBBY" i went and... saw something i like and the shipping is $38!!!!!!!!!

i don't even know how they charge. i saw a book yest at amazon and it cos $0.01 HAHAHAHA how is this possible??? HAHAHA and the shipping is 300 times more @ $3.99. HOW COME??? now i'm tempted to buy everything. damnit. 

haven been reading Scott Turow's second book and more than halfway through the book, i realized there's a chapter title wtf. cos presumed innocent didnt have chapters title, so i went back and re-read the chapters title HHAAH. *dumb** and I ... BANG ONTO THE BUSSTOP POST while walking hahah, damn embarrassing and then i got a migraine? how is that connected leh?

i suddenly realised (too late) that someone the mobile plan i use is probably what keeps me with my friends haha but i don have 3g and they whatsapp so i get cut off from their news :(. oklo, ostracize me. very depressing weekend ahead then.

kindle? kinder?

very tempted to buy kindle (@$130) or ipod touch (at i don't know how much) i have been sitting on this items or things for months (okay la, one 2+ months for the kindle, 6+ months for the itouch haha). so i duno what's going to happen la... since i'm in between like an impulsive person and a wait-until-die-then-never-do-anything person. so i also duno, sekali ... i buy both haha but i then my plan gonna expire on coming dec... but i'm not looking to get the data plan (i want a $0 phone haha, cheapskate) cos they gonna cap at 2gb :( - why u do this to me when i was on the verge of wanting to sign the data plan :c okay la maybe they want me to save the money to buy the kindle or the itouch WAHAHAHA *disillusioned** wtf, i hope i can decide lah damnit. or should i get the lenovo tablet at $280 haahha???

 

 

wtf.*hyperventilate**

i am spending every free-waking-minute thinking of you hahaha..i'm now damn impulsed to go and buy a kindle and probably regret that i should get the tablet instead *hais** help me somebody!!! lol... *itchy hands** :((

sometimes, i really behave like an idiot. i told my mother i bought the booklight at $1.05 for weeks (yes, wtf!!) and she went "ITS ONLY $1.05, WHY U NEED TO THINK SO LONG???!!!!!" and she only took all of 3 seconds to tell me to help her buy one when i see it -_-"


wonder what she will say when i told her i only took 1.5 months to decide on buy the scott turow book HAHAHA.. probably skin me alive hahha. 


my sister who goes shopping with me, have me driving her nuts everytime HAHAHA. i will sit on the decision until the last minute and then i'll say "let's go home, tired already."


but i buy only this thing impulsively, i need 15 seconds to think and then i'll decide if i want it or not. no regrets! ribbons. hahaha ;P


why is everything so expensive? shit. my sis asked me how much should the kindle be priced so i would buy (IMMEDIATELY). i told her $50. hahaah she looked at me darkly and rolled her eyes hahaha, i think she just didn't ask me to go and die hahaha. 

if u wan a kindle, go here. @sweetevilspree http://sweetevilspree.blogspot.sg/2012/05/kindle-wi-fi-6-e-ink-display.html 
i think i am going to spend every waking hour thinking of this now. /_\

McDonalds

feel like eating McDonalds, but its only Tuesday, so i gotta hold my tongue or my mouth or my horses. 

am hovering around in breakdown mode (once again) and trying to keep myself sane at the same time. duno what godzillion times this must bloody happen *shit me**

whats w guys and movies?!! i dun wan go movies on sunday lahhh.. :(. go somewhere else? 

feeling very depressed of late, no idea why, maybe i haven got my McDonalds fix HAHAHAHAHA!!!

unworthy of...

my worrying at its best. feeling unworthy :( 

sometimes i think i am unworthy of many things, unworthy of being happy, unworthy of having good friends, unworthy of being called nice. *le-sigh** maybe i am unworthy of making ribbons also :(

but maybe only worthy of viagra and whatever shit that comes in the spam mail hahaha. sometimes really wanna reply, thanks but no thanks i don't need tt bloody viagra haahha wtf.

maybe the architect of bliss would do fine? 

 obolo - The Architects of Bliss; the place where the nice wise man worked at and ... he said, we shouldnt work so hard that we neglect everything, including our friends. i wanted to go and hug him la, but later he box me lol. cos i just said i seems to have lost friends with my working hours :( and seems like he hit the bulleye then? i hope now, to be a better, kinder, sweeter, more considerate friend to my friends, i hope they let me be one?

macarons in champagne, bitter sweet chocolate, early grey chocolate & rose flavour. not bad, very nice. 

the gloomy clouds, but quite serene huh, don't u think? *picturesque** 

tea dot @ nex with wei wen, i drank erm ... tired latte cuppaccino (i think?) and she drank erm ... green tea matcha latte? sorry dont remember the name cos i drank like a cow, taste the same leh hahahah. ok my bad, my bad. maybe i wanna go drink starbucks alone on sat. anybody?? ok nvm, i forever loner, so i will drink my self gah... (*should i get that book***???)

  bye bye ji, thank you for everything u have given to man u. i watched you in your debut match (vs fulham) and remembered how the commentators commended your performances (when many doubt you and thought you were a marketing gimmick, but you weren't). u proved your ability. thank you for all your contributions and thank you for all the medals. THANK YOU PARK!!! i wished u didn't have to go but good luck and all the best, u will always be a devil. Don't let joey barton get u down!!

maybe he should consider a career in hosting (mc), he did a fine fine job while taking over for MC Yuk @ running man, damn funny and witty hahaha. it was really good, i was having a bad day that day and watching him, i really cheered up even thou its @ 2am and i got to work the next day. 

now, i really gotta work tomorrow. so bye!! 

Onward ... (the phase howard schultz is saying has been catching onto me)

 

Don't ever leave me ... "i won't"

*quoting from books again, still v much sucked into the book =S

have been receiving bad news here and there and i knew things were to good to be too happy. somehow i feel because of what i have done (yeah am finding excuses for my actions but not proud of it), its not easy to feel happy. i feel like the character in the book, fml, except that character is rich, successful and eligible but i fear for my every breathing second (maybe except when i sleep, or maybe not cos sometimes my sleep is interrupted by nightmares :"(). i remembered waking up crying a few times because of the nightmares *sigh** and i woke up crying zzz... but as a child i really had nice dreams hahaha dream of all the toys i had and woke up trying to find my new toys to play -_-""".

its easy for people to say. "no, i'm not doing it anymore and i'm letting go." but in my situation, its not easy to even think of this situation, but i very much wanna try and work in another field. i'm very exhausted already and disappointment seems to be lurking around in every corner every single time i had high hopes of gaining new experience. i hope i can be normal with regards due to working life, 8-5/6 and getting to go some places sometimes in the evening. i think i lost many friends due to work already. duno why i say so much today when i don like to talk about work ~~ i just hope of having a chance to gain new experience, maybe not gain back the friends i've lost =(. its easy to criticize lah i know ... but sometimes its very tiring trying to hide the truth and wanting at the same time, to speak the truth :(. i hope...

more laters, if i can bear it. 


happy weekend!