sorry for the vulgarities

great depressed all over again.
sat - slept 3am
sun - slept 1am
mon - 3am i f-----g woke up @ 9.15
tues - 3am

now its not i dun wan slp, i wan slp so f-----g badly but i cant. bloody cant my eyes are going to close i am thinking of my bed, my back is aching, my eyes are tired.
53 mins past since 2, and i am still not finished with the f--- editing.
sorry but i hate english, hate myself, hate sch, hate everything

great, get depressed again, go jump down and die.

i think it'll be a miracle if i really DO survive this 3yrs of my most horrible experience. let me choose all over, i'll stick to what i said, going U is a waste of money. yes it really is. what do i get? sleepless nights, open tap, red eyes, yawning and my miserable miserable life. constant worrying from 1st to 16th thru exam and break until the release of results. not worth my cells, neurons, everything lah.

f-u-b-!

so what if i have a blue i/- ?

sorry once more, i duno why i've become so vulgar.