somehow, i always remembered what a friend said when she was going through a bad breakup. "i will only love myself from now on". i always wondered what made her said such harsh words. but now i realise, it doesn't seems as harsh as i had thought initially but it made all the sense in the world. 

because, who will love me if i don't? if nobody loves me, then i'll love myself. reminding me of a convo between p and me. 

me: "its time we treat ourselves better lol"
p   : "ive been very good to myself. Hahaha"

yeah, probably its time i treat myself better rather than waiting for you?